Faux Family ?

I've never really been that close to my family. Actually, that's a lie. When i was younger, i was such a daddies girl; me and me dad were incredibly close but our relationship now is terrible. I wish i was closer to my family, but i can't pretend be close to a group of people who barely know me. 


From the outside it probably looks as if we are just a normal family, but we don't talk at all. phone calls with my mum and dad last no more then 30 seconds, when they should lasts hours even. 
Even if we don't have the most conventional relationship where i tell them everything that goes on in my life, i still wish we were closer than what we are now. unfortunately in life there are no do-overs. 

My family was the one who always in the middle of shouting at me, put their telephone voice on immediately when the phone rang. Or pretended we were closer than anything on parents evening etc. 

I didn't really introduce my family to my friends, i was too embarrassed really. I was always round their houses, and i didn't dare have any friends sleep round. Only once, but she'd known me long enough to sort of understand how my family works. 

They call me anti-social, i call it not liking them. Most of my time is spent in my room with my headphones in, thinking because i'm a thinker me. :D 

School? my family aren't/weren't very interactive when it came to my school life. They were never the ones who rang or emailed the school about a problem. I remember choosing my options, and all my friends had discussed it with their family me however hadn't spoken a single word to them about it I made the decision completely independently. 

it's not a very good picture, but i get along so well with my granddad

I am pretty close to my cousins, i have plenty of cousins but i'm only close to about three of them. Those three being the younger generation of the family so i suppose they know what its like. My Granddad, means the world to me. Although we don't see each other all the time, we are incredibly close we ring each other all the time and even though he may not know the "real" me i still you know love him, he really makes the effort to try and get to know me. 

Do i love my family? i would sort of be lying if i said i do. i do but i don't. I appreciate all that they have done for me, but i don't agree with how they raised us, things can't be changed though so i suppose that has made me who i am today. 

My advice to anyone, is don't hide who you are from your family. If they don't accept who you really are, or if they don't like the real you, you've done it you've told them who you really are and you won't regret it in the future. When you do get older, you'll regret all the times you could have but didn't tell your family who you were, you'll start blaming yourself when it really wasn't your fault. 
You only have one life, so live it by being your best self, not the person everyone else wants you to be. 

So that's my take on family :) What's yours ?

  Naomie 

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